Do you ever just feel like you are swallowed up by the world around you?Not sure of what direction to go next and completely unsure of what your life should actually look like? What if instead of letting my destiny make me, I created my own destiny by forcing my perfectionist view of what I thought I was supposed to do and suppressing the Devine plan?
How many times do we take things into our own hands and think that we know what is best? I can honestly say I probably do that more than 100 times a day. What would happen if we just stopped trying to figure it out and waited for it to work itself out?I wish my mental capabilities would allow me to do this. I am the type of person who has to have a solution to every problem and a plan of action for anything that “might” possibly occur.
What I recognize now is that I have spent most of my life planning for something that ends up not happening and putting all my eggs in my own basket.I need to allow myself more patience and reflection and dump the eggs out!
Why is it that we so often forget to just slow down and observe our direction?I usually back track and recognize yeah, back at two years ago I should have taken the right instead of the left and now I am at a dead end.Why is that? I believe that it has something to do with the fact I am busy making my own path and my own way in a life not on my terms, in the past I think it has only been on my terms. What if the plan is far bigger than I give myself credit for? Am I short changing myself in the meantime because of the idealistic assumption this is how it has to be?
I have control issues, I am not ashamed to say it. I want my life to be a certain way. I’m not sure if it is because of the harsh judgment of bystanders, which we all experience throughout life, or the fact that I have such high expectations for myself that no one human could possibly achieve the success I strive for.
What if we reposition and start recognizing that the success we once strived for was actually not the most important thing in your life? What if everything that we have worked for in more than a decade is now no longer the ultimate goal? What if that world around us really did swallow us up just like Jonah in the whale?Old me would have already had a picnic basket prepared with matches, food and toilet paper just in case I happened to be swallowed. Lol This new, more mindful me is hopeful for the end destination because eventually the whale is going to spit me out!Sink or swim, here I am and presently there is no raft to keep me afloat.
We are in a season of our lives that we have no control over. Everyone you ask will have advise, an opinion or solution.But do they really know? Only God knows everything, every little thing that you have endured and sacrificed to get to where you are right now.We are living in unprecedented times with only one life saving device.Hold fast to the faith you have.That whale will spit you out!Are you prepared for a new beginning?
To brighter days! Love,
~Amanda
